Dear Maharajas and Prabhus,

Please accept our humble obeisances. All glories to Srila Prabhupada!

The many letters, prayers, and phone calls have been a great source of comfort for Balabhadra. Thank you again and again. Our hearts are touched with your kindness.

Balabhadra is now at home. It was concluded that heart surgery was not necessary. He has been given many medicines to take for his heart and high blood pressure. In one month he is to meet with the cardiologist again to see how he is doing. He is not feeling so good from the medicines but we are told that his body will adjust within a few days. His heart was not at all damaged by the heart attack.

The test results on his liver came back normal.

The whole situation with his leg has not been resolved as the neurologist did not come into the hospital on the weekend. Our general doctor there gave us the name of the expert neurologist in the area and wants us to call him and get an appointment as soon as possible. The fact that he has been immobile and in pain for so long is not good for his present and future health.

Right now he is sleeping soundly which he wasn't able to do in the hospital. The pain in his leg comes and goes in severity. He is scheduled for the acupuncturist in a few days and hopefully he will be feeling well enough to have the treatment as it gave him much relief.

Balabhadra is receiivng phone calls at our home phone: 304-843-1658. I am hoping he wil feel well enough to access on his laptop his own email at balabhadra.iscowp@earthlink.net . You can still also write to iscowp@earthlink.net and I will make sure he will receive it.

If you could continue to pray for his improved general health and that his leg situation is resolved soon so that he may be able again to walk amongst the cows.

Your servant,
Chayadevi

“Doctor Atomic” is an opera in cycle on PBS these days. It is an English language contemporary one.  I had it on and wasn’t paying a lot of attention doing something else at the same time, mostly listening to the music. It was a little modern and used too much brass for my taste but had some good dark passages that suited me enough to continue listening.

All of a sudden I heard “Senses… objects of the senses…temporary” which sounded like  a verse from the Bhagavad -Gita.  As it turned out it was. The opera is about developing the atomic bomb and the first test blast.  Robert Oppenheimer is the lead character. It is well known he quoted Gita when the bomb went off.

Turns out the libretto was based in part on the Bhagavad Gits and it shows in several places.  Read about how the libretto  was made here.

For another take on “Doctor Atomic” click here.

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Written by: Chayadevi (Balabhadra's Wife)

Dear Maharajas and Prabhus,

Please accept our humble obeisances. All glories to Srila Prabhupada!

We would like to thank all of you for your phone calls, messages and prayers. It means a lot to Balabhadra.I will try to explain as simply as possibly what has been happening with Balabhadra's health.

Balabhadra has always had back problems for over 40 years
(he is approaching his 63 birthday in April). He was always able to get over any flare ups and continue to physically work very hard. His whole life has been full of physical work and in his devotee years (initiated in 1969) mostly centered on farm life and the cows. This last year has been different. He has collapsed about four times and his recovery has been slow, like two weeks or more for each collapse. His visits to doctors, MRI, etc. revealed herniated disks, moderate spinal stenosis and some other deterioration but nothing that was considered an emergency surgery candidate. Some meds, instructions how to go about his activities, and physical therapy was recommended. At the same time it was found that the pain he was experiencing in his left knee was a result of very little cartilage on one side of the knee. Because he was favoring the other knee this was also negatively affecting his back problems.

Five weeks ago he was in physical therapy to strengthen his left knee and felt a tinkling and burning in his right leg. He told the therapist and was told to work through it. The following day he could not walk, the pain in his right leg was so severe. We went to the emergency room and were told he sprained his knee and the pain should decrease in a few days. The next five weeks were spent trying to get the state clinic we are a member of to understand this is not a sprain because the pain is severe and not getting less intense. After being prescribed more meds, we were told they could do nothing for us. The third week we then tried an acupuncturist who gave Balabhadra some relief but was scheduled to go on vacation for the next two weeks. The acupuncturist felt positive he could relieve the pain with more treatments.

Last Tuesday we were able to get a treatment at the acupuncturist and for the first time in five weeks Balabhadra could lay in bed without constant pain. We were very happy thinking we were on the right path to recovery. The past five weeks he had been bedridden, his only activity trips to the bathroom which is about 15 feet away from the bed. The pain became most intense when standing upright. Then Wednesday night he went to the bathroom and I heard a loud noise, as if something was knocked over. I opened the bathroom door and found him lying on the floor, his forehead bloody. He fell and hit his head on the ceramic floor. He was conscious and I tried to help him move back to the bedroom. Halfway there he began to slowly fall from me onto the floor. On the floor his neck began to arch and his eyes began to roll to the back of his head. He was moaning and he seemed to be leaving me and this world.

From caring for dying cows and other animals, this is what I have seen before the soul leaves the body. I started lightly slapping him and calling to him, he came back to consciousness and I called 911, turned up the volume of the Prabhupada bhajan tape we had playing and gave him rescue remedy. At one point he began to lose consciousness again but by talking to him he stayed conscious.

The ambulance came and brought us to the hospital where he was hooked up to a lot of wires and drips and monitors. It was decided he should stay overnight since some of the readings were questionable. The next morning we were told the blood tests indicated he had a heart attack and it was ongoing. That was why they were checking on him constantly and readjusting all the drips. It was a mild heart attack and his heart was not damaged. Eventually the heart would stabilize or something bad would happen. We were told that people who have this type of heart attack usually have one again within 6 months, and then it might be more severe. It was decided that he needed a procedure (angioplast ?) in which the doctor goes in through a vein in the groin and takes pictures of the heart to see if and where any blockage might be. In the meantime the blood tests found that there is something not quite right with his liver.

His heart stabilized by the following morning (yesterday) and he had the procedure. Problems were found which needed some consultation with the expert cardiologist in the area. We are now waiting to hear what the doctors recommend as to the next step for his heart, more test results on what is up with his liver, and a report from the neurologist as to what is causing the pain in his left leg and hip.

The good news is that since the one treatment by the acupuncturist he has been off most of the meds for his leg pain and is experiencing far less pain in his leg and hip. His heart remains stable and he is off the drips. The other good news is that he is hearing from devotees their concern and that they will pray for him. He is still in the hospital and has been receiving calls at (304) 843 3301. You can also write him a note at iscowp@earthlink.net and I will print it out and give it to him. It really does mean a lot to him when he hears from the devotees. We are now just waiting for information. It may be a few days as it is the weekend and a holiday here.

Balabhadra is realizing he is at a crossroads in his life. He no longer has the facility to be the workaholic "earthworm" and has to now become a "bookworm." With your prayers and blessings and Krishna's desire he will recover and in the years to come will engage himself more in speaking about cow protection with the purpose to encourage others and fulfill his eternal debt to Srila Prabhupada who has saved us all.

Your servant,Chayadevi (Balabhadra's wife)

Another pic from Laxmi Honest.  A kirtan at her house in 1987.

radhanth-kirtan-1987

I am going out on a limb here saying the head closest to the camera is Bhimasena and the kid with the hand to his forehead is Bhagavan. Partly because they look like them but mostly because they are in other pictures from the same event. I believe the kid on the far left was Sankirtan, who was also there.

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During our New Year’s Eve party, an ambulance went out the lane that passes through our property.   We had just spoken to Mahati who has moved into Pusti’s trailer so we knew it wasn’t her.  That left Stanley, a local who has lived alone at the end of the lane since his mother died, is well over 70, and a drinker, and Balabhadra’s crew. It easily could have been Stanley.

It was too late to call Balabhadra so I called this morning and got voice mail. He called me back this evening from the hospital and said he had a heart attack. They will be doing tests tomorrow (Friday) to see the extent of the damage but at least he can dial a phone.

FYI, if you or someone you know has a heart attack, it is recommended to take some aspirin while waiting for the ambulance.  Aspirin is a blood thinner and can possibly limit the impact of the heart attack.

Balabhadra is a Prabhupada disciple who has dedicated his life to cow protection so please pray for him.

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Here are some pictures of our recently installed solar panels. Now we just need some sun!


While I was visiting Laxmi Honest in Florida she gave me some pictures of when a lot of devotees had visited her home in Meadeville, Pennsylvania, in 1987.

A couple of ashrams of boys were visiting for a week. A women and a men’s sankirtan parties stopped by as well as Radhanath Swami.  As the winter gets deeper and I have energy, I will be posting more from that occasion but for a little taste here is one with Hladini dancing in a  kirtan.

I think Hladini pictures are a bit rare so hopefully this is a treat for her fans.

hladini-1987

This is the woman’s party. Pictured are Lalita Kundi, Hladini, Rati Manjari, and Jyotistoma dds.

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You believe in Santa Claus.

You don’t believe in Santa Claus.

You are Santa Claus.

You look like Santa Claus.

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Understanding is the reward of faith. Therefore, seek not to understand that thou mayest believe, but believe that thous mayest understand."- St. Augustine

Faith is something that must be put to the test, that must become an active part of our lives, applied to all the various facets of the undertakings of our bodies, minds, hearts, and souls.

Our faith must become realized and alive in such a way that it doesn't become an abstract, reaching "belief" that can be easily shot down by the likes of such modern-day "pundits" as Richard Dawkins and Christopher Hitchens.

Why did Srila Prabhupada constantly describe the process of Krsna Consciousness as the "science of God" and "the science of self-realization"? Anyone with a fourth-grade education can tell you with some gusto that science and faith are mutually exclusive, so if we are practicing a scientific process of self-realization, then what is the role of faith?

Quite simply, we can understand, or try to understand, that so much of the spiritual realm beyond this material shell is incomprehensible to our mild minds and shattered senses. But we must have the faith in the descriptions of the realized acaryas that this is actually what the spiritual world is like, that this is what Krsna looks like and this is what He does.

At the same time, our process of bhakti-yoga is active and verifiable in its results in a way that can be observed by the scientific method.

By chanting the maha-mantra reguarly, by following the four regulative principles, by preaching widely and consistently, by reading Prabhupada's books, etc, we get the results that are advertised. Our lives and our existences become absorbed in the flows of auspiciousness, as mentioned in the opening verses of the 16th Chapter of the Gita. We actually become brahmanas!

This is a great point for preaching. The faith we hold, essential for any aspiring spiritualist, needs a process, a daily practice, to become mature and realized. The sankirtana process and the society of devotees with Prabhupada and Lord Caitanya as the guiding lights provide, when practiced humbly and properly, the best and most scientifically verifiable method of self-realization available today.

Prabhupada writes in his purport to S.B 3.15.33: If the members of the International Society for Krishna Consciousness, putting faith in Kr?s?n?a as the center, live in harmony according to the order and principles of Bhagavad-g?t?, then they are living in Vaikun?t?ha, not in this material world.

It's a powerful statement, something which we have to yet to fulfill on a large scale within ISKCON. The important part is living in harmony with the order and principles of the Gita. This deepens our faith with Krsna at the center, and makes it a vibrant, ecstatic reality.

So many people want something more tangible than just the misguided and misdirected faith they are offered. Let us offer them not only the most mysterious and sublime of faiths, but also the way to see it face-to-face.

My friend from Asia has powers and magic, he plucks a blue leaf from the young
blue-gum
And gazing upon it, gathering and quieting
The God in his mind, creates an ocean more real than the ocean, the salt, the actual
Appalling presence, the power of the waters.
He believes that nothing is real except as we make it. I humbler have found in my
blood
Bred west of Caucasus a harder mysticism.
Multitude stands in my mind but I think that the ocean in the bone vault is only
The bone vault’s ocean: out there is the ocean’s;
The water is the water, the cliff is the rock, come shocks and flashes of reality. The
mind
Passes, the eye closes, the spirit is a passage;
The beauty of things was born before eyes and sufficient to itself; the heartbreaking
beauty
Will remain when there is no heart to break for it.

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I didn’t get to the computer yesterday as it hit 67 deg (19 C) and so used what energy I had available  outside doing some belated fall cleanup. I also chopped some cook stove wood and wheelbarrowed that to the kitchen porch stash and also refilled the basement stove wood bin, which is about a face cord of wood in each location.  We have the main wood pile but on good dry days refill the stash by each stove so it is more convenient.

Tulasi went up on the roof and cleaned both stove pipes. It is recommended to check your stove pipes monthly and clean as required, so we do this a few times a season even though we burn cured, dry wood and let the fire roar for at least a half hour a day even when it isn’t needed.

I am behind on the trip postings. One thing I learned: bring your own USB cable along if you want to post pictures on the road at others’ computers.

Here are some pics from Alachua. “Go” in Sanskrit means both cow and land, ergo the title as this is about cows and living close to the land.

The first thing I saw on entering the temple property was this array of solar panels, showing someone has the right idea.

alachua-solar-panels

They were installed for Y2K and aren’t currently working because the batteries got old and are very expensive to replace.  They are investigating net metering, where instead of using batteries you feed excess electricity back into the grid and get credit.  Apparently Gainesville has just passed a very workable net metering law but Alachua is just outside their jurisdiction so it will take a little more work to get it set up.

Nearby is an old cane mill that rust tells me hasn’t been used for some time but will come in handy if anyone ever decides to do cane or sorghum.

alachua-cane-press

The temple has gardens, mostly greens and brassicas this time of year. We saw Shanka (winters in Alachua, summers in NV) and he was planting a succession crop of broccoli and cauliflower.

alachua-winter-garden

There is a flea market type deal at the Sunday feast with devotees selling prasadam, books  and crafts.  There was one devotee selling produce whose name I have spaced out.  He was the one devotee at Alachua I could relate to the most as I used to do farmer’s markets so we had a nice bit of shop talk.

alachua-market-gardener

I didn’t get invited to see any private gardens but Kapila said he had about a hundred fruit trees on his property so I assume others have gardens also.

Vidya was joking that we could come down one winter and plant a gourd crop. Then we could go there the next winter and craft the gourds (it takes a year from planting to have a cured gourd) and spend the winter planting the next crop and selling crafted gourds.

We ran into an old New Vrindaban devotee, Jagannath, at the Sunday program.  He lives in Alachua now and cares for 20 cows that are protected by an individual devotee whose name I didn’t catch (see a pattern with the names?).

alachua-tulasi-with-dexters

Here is Tulasi being checked out by the cows. When we went and saw the cows  Jagannath wasn’t there, but I am guessing they are Dexters, an old heritage breed.

The temple also has 20 cows.

alachua-old-ox

This group was the old oxen.  While we got a skewed version of Alachua as two busloads of young people were gone on a trip to Mexico (unfortunately for Tulasi), it does have kind of an old, retired vibe about the place, and these guys exemplified it.

If I had Photoshop and knew how to use it, I would stick my image into this photo and feel quite comfortable about looking at it.

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We are home and the trip is officially over.

I had a great idea for a blog post but didn’t put the energy into developing it.

If I had, I would have posted it here.

Just thought you’d like to know.

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I don't profess to have a very proper understanding of the mechanics of the Darwinist theory of evolution, so I'm always a little wary to blindly refute it based on the little knowledge I have, and so I keep an inquisitive mindset into what exactly is valid and invalid about this theory that so many people take as absolute fact.

Here's an article that asks a simple question: Where are the fossil records of all the not-fully formed predecessors to the fully formed species that we have dug up and that we see living today?

We are leaving Laxmi and Dave’s this morning so we are officially on the return trip. We are going to take a different route home for the first part of the journey.

We are going up the Gulf Coast an hour to another beach then crossing over to the Atlantic Coast where we will take Route A1A which goes up the barrier island so we will be at a beach whenever we feel like taking a a break.

We have a fire stacked in the woodstove so all we need is a match when we get back because the house is going to be cold.

Checked the weather at home and the day after we arrive home the forecast is for a 50+ deg F (10 C) day so apparently Krishna is having mercy on us so we can transition back into the cold.

We will be home in plenty of time for our New Year’s Eve party so keep that in your plans.

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After arriving from Alachua yesterday I spent today building up a need for aloe vera to avert the sunburn I would have otherwise acquired on a Gulf Coast beach in Florida.  Endless clear sky over ocean to the horizon.  Watching the pelicans fish and every time they  dove in and struck a sea gull was right by them waiting to steal or cop a remnant.

No card reader or correct size USB cable here at Dave and Laxmi Honest’s but hopefully I will have a few pics once home. Ate oranges from the back yard for breakfast and donuts bought at the Sunday feast at Alachua temple from Tamohara’s stand. Don’t be fooled by his day job(s), his avocation is donuts.

Before the Gulf coast we were  in Alachua. We arrived there Saturday evening and had dinner at Sabjimata’s. Read one version of events here, including menu.

Sunday morning went to Greeting the Deities at the temple, and the first devotees I saw were Kapila and Puskar, former New Vrindaban residents, so got to shoot the breeze with them.

More on Alachua later, just a short update today so no one thinks I died recently.

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